I feel like this isnt my place. This isnt my place to be my own person. To establish what I have yet to become. What i want to be grown into. I feel that my presence isnt in the right place. Sometimes i feel, that my life wouldve been a whole lot better if i havent moved that one year, at the end of 2nd grade.
I loved my life at St. Gens. I was content and happy. A little private school, where all my friends were. Those were the first friends i made. I just wished that i had the chance to gow up with them, and catch those kodak moments with them. And hey, i dont regret my school years in Castaic and my first and second year of highschool in West Ranch, but i just would jsut wish that there was another way to keep in touch.
This all leads to: transfering to Valencia. The deals done, and i just have to see what comes. But deep inside, im terrified. Terrified of whats to come. I dont know the people there, how the academics and extra curriculars there are. I just dont know whats coming forth.
anyways, this is just whats in thought right now, and i'll prolly regret it. But i really dont know. But my biggest regret is moving. Anyways the point of this whole thing, is if i didnt move from my childhood valley, in the first place; i wouldnt be thinking of this whole thing.
*sigh
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