Nowadays its hard to get into a decent school. You would think being an average A, B student would get into a UC, but times are rough right now. And i know, life goes on; and we just have to deal with what we got... but it takes time.
First i had to worry about applying to colleges. It was a drag. I wanted to wait till the exact last minute opportunity i had to fill out those applications. Just thinking that this is the only way colleges can get a clue on who you are as a person and if you are right for their school. Its terrible. I didn't want to go through with it. But i told myself that i didn't want to go to a community college, lo and behold; that might be my only option, unfortunately.
Second, it was days away for the UC and Cal State application deadline. That one click of a button; after paying for the application that is was my ONE shot. Just one. I remember this day clearly. It was the day before my birthday. I didn't want to stress about it on my birthday so i knew that it would be refreshing if i turned it on before my birthday. My brother was right by my side, reviewing my application, making some revisions to my personal statement. Thank goodness he was there for me. i dont know what i would have done. After all, he was the one who paid for all my applications! Thank goodness. But yes, that was the day i turned in my applications. And yes, i was relieved. Relieved that i got all of that over with. Relieved that i wouldn't have to worry about applications anymore. But in the back of my head... i knew that this was only the beginning. in a few months, i would know the results of these applications.
Easily breezing by highschool....
March comes in.
CSUF accepted! yay.
CSUN accepted! yay.
UCLA rejected. nay.
UCI. rejected. nay.
Hey its 2 for 2, i guess? NOW I'm here. Writing on my blog, debating on what i should do next.
Time is running out. I've been putting off this day ever since i got my Irvine rejection letter. It KILLS me, i mean really kills me to know that i didn't get accepted into my dream school. I've gone through too much to even begin to worry about my future. The reason of this is because I'm heartbroken. Irvine was the only school that I ever pictured myself attending. I mean, really attending. Yes, when i was younger i wanted to go to UCLA or NYU- but that was a long shot. COC is always an option. But no playtime if i'm at COC, i'm gonna get my prereqs and then transfer.
I could appeal to Irvine. Everyone is saying just do it, it wouldn't hurt if you did. But, it would. Getting rejected is bad enough, but for a second time? I don't know if its worth it. Is it? The Irvine appeal is due a week from today. I need to write a letter stating anything different from the time i turned in my application to today. I need to include my transcript that includes my 1st semester of senior year? Do i want to do that? Am i strong enough to go through with it? Wow, i'm sounding like its life or death right now. Hahaa, actually as of right now it is life or death. Hey! its my future we're talking about here.
As my third and final step, i need to decide what i want to do. I could do the Irvine appeal and see what happens. Or i could go to COC. As of right now, i don't think i'm willing to go to a Cal State. Is that bad? sigh. Only time will tell.
Life will always bring me anxiety. It's not fair, but I need to keep a smile on my face! "Awh, that actually made me smile!"
Goodbyebye!
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